What if you were the one who fell for me?
Would you wait for me to go online
and waste minutes just so you could talk to me?
Would you make up a topic so you could have a longer conversation with me?
Would you?

I wonder if you’ll do the same.
What if I’m the one who’s being cold?
Would you feel bad too?
Would you wait for days so that you won’t be that obvious?
Would you walk in the streets for 8 hours
Hoping by chance you’d see me there?
Would you?

Would you send me an anonymous text message just to ask me where I am?
Would you feel the same way I’ve felt for you?
Would you be planning for the following months?
Will I be a part of that plan?
Would you be worried if I’ve forgotten or remembered you?
Would you wish that I was by your side?
Would you?

If only things were like that…
Yeah, what if?
Just what if?
Will I be able to feel like this too?

-Judy 

It’s not always safe to “Play Safe”. Sometimes you need to go out of your shell and explore and try on new things. A masterpiece is a result of your creative juices mixed together to formulate one great output that’ll will define who you really are. I need to try and learn new stuff such as Adobe Illustrator, Maya (recommended by Eric), and digital painting in CS5. By the end of the year, I must be able to working on at least one of these design softwares. In the end, I’ll be the one who’s going to benefit.

For now, I need to finish our Magazine and Newspaper.. and work on this goal.

Never stay longer in your comfort zone coz you might end up having the same monotonous outputs and you’ll realize.. Life is boring if you always live by your rules. Try breaking your rules once in a while, who knows.. by breaking those rules, you’ll be able to learn new things and live by it in the near future. Never limit yourself to one or two experiences. Remember: Experience is unlimited, and it is the best teacher you could ever have.

I don’t want to turn forty and ask myself, “Was I ever happy?”, or look at young people dive, climb or race and say, “I wish I could’ve done that when I was younger and when I didn’t have arthritis”. I don’t want any regrets. It’s way better to regret what you’ve done than do nothing and lie in bed later, asking “What if?”

Minsan na tanong ko sarili ko kung masaya ba ako sa buhay ko ngayon.. sabi ko lang “malamang.. tumatawa nga ako eh”. And that hit me.. di porket tumatawa, masaya na. Minsan sa likod ng tawa may mga masasakit na karanasan na kailangang takpan para di mahalata ng ibang tao. May follow up question ako sa sarili ko, ano ba ang makakapagpasaya sa akin? “Ano nga ba?” art? si crush? family? di ko alam eh. I even asked myself what is happiness nga ba? Tama na ba yung makuha mo yung bagay na gusto mo? 

Hanggang ngayon tanong ko pa rin yan sa sarili ko. And when I read that quote (yung nsa taas).. that hit me. I NEED TO DECIDE ON THE THINGS THAT WILL REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY (DI LANG PANG TEMPORARY PWEDENG PANG FOREVER NA DIN) dahil kung hindi ngayon, kelan pa? Kapag uugod-ugod na ako at di na pantay mga ngipin ko?

So bago ako matulog, I’m leaving my thoughts with one question? or actually two.

• Masaya ka ba?
• Ano ba magpapasaya sa yo?

Ayun, sana sooner.. masagot ko na siya. =) Help me Lord.